A dash of sunshine crosses my heart,i was so pissed mad at myself for being so blind in believing what others said before they proceeded into the nitty-gritty details. but then i am easily cheer-up when there are moments when something funny happens and i keep myself apart from the not-so-important issues.
i seriously fuck off those heartbreaker, if you can’t mum your promises why would you recite your grievances to somebody?! everybody would have been so dissapointed that they chose to trust you at first. when all trust started to fall apart, the insecured person inside me just chooses to treat the issues( fact/rumours) as ammunition when it comes to the situation i don’t wish to experience.
sorry for my abundance of emotions!
admist all this sadness incident, i am bubbling with excitement and there are lot of awesome pawsome moment circulating me. i smile though i just stared at certain things and my mind often wander off when my friends are talking to me, i tend to give responses by nodding enthusiatically at a strategic intervals * smile sheepishly* i feel the love that i searching for like ages( PS: not satisfy but is happier than i was)
i felt so relieved when i told my deep dark secret( a small portion only) to bestiz that i have it inside my heart for a very very long time, but the little girl inside me shall not tell you those unspreadable secrets, i am an excellent secret-keeper, wtf! share your story with me please* pleading pleading* surprise surprise, i just awared of i rather have high level of tolerance with repeateable story, politeness is very crucial so i ensure my face looked attentive though i knew the story. haha..damn pro in this! and of course, DO NOT put me into this awkward if you see i am not in the mood in layan-ning you…be smart okies, i do not care enough whether you do it on purpose or have forgotten that you actually share the story, i will just slapped on the storyline with a extremely brutal way as i have mood disorders and it can be easily spotted. mood swing is very irritability but can’t change it since it is cultural inheritance, wtf!
i am not always on a somewhat shopping ban